When will you have a second child?You don’t want to wait too long.You’re turning 35 this year? Is that advanced maternal age?You had a baby already…. so easily…why is it hard now? Appointments…specialists…take this medicine….let’s draw some labs….endoscopies….there isinflammation…we have concerns….stillbirth risk…..frequent miscarriage is a possibility….fetal delays maybe a potential…wait…wait…we still need to wait. In 3 months let’s reevaluate.Mmm let’s...
The Puzzle of Me
It was my first time away from Forrest this week. As I drove to the coast for my work assignment I caught up on a podcast talking about the 4th trimester and I could not stop replaying THIS on the process of becoming a Mother. “Your life is like a puzzle. You’re gonna throw all the pieces up and then...
Nursing
19.5 months.We worked so hard to get here.Plugged ducts.Low supply.Lip tie.Tongue tie.Misdiagnoses.Surgeries performed multiple times due to regrowth and incorrect revisions done the first time.Craniosacral therapy.Chiropractic care.Speech therapy.Nursing strikes. Social pressure to stop nursing.Countless hours spent in research reading evidence based literature on breastfeeding, latch, and ties.Time spent advocating for myself. I fed you cross country as we moved from Arizona to...
Fern's Birth Story
Pregnancy with Fern taught me to look inward. To seek healing in places that Forrest’s birth brought to light. I sought out literature, social media accounts, films, podcasts, people of interest in the birthing world, enrolled in classes, and discovered places of inspiration I had not explored prior. I visualized and meditated and most of all let go, because birth...