It was my first time away from Forrest this week. As I drove to the coast for my work assignment I caught up on a podcast talking about the 4th trimester and I could not stop replaying THIS on the process of becoming a Mother.
“Your life is like a puzzle. You’re gonna throw all the pieces up and then you’re going to spend two years putting these pieces of your puzzle back together. It’s a two- year process after the birth of this child.
Can you just be okay with that? Cause it is what it is…..
And any forcing any other direction or to complete the project or the puzzle before it’s time is not really going to work anyway…. and you’ll be left at the end of the puzzle with pieces that just don’t go back inside.
Can you just make it ok?
Can you just allow it?”
– @underthehood_podcast
The past few days away I have meditated, practiced yoga, reconnected with my breath, read for pleasure, sat in nature, and just was STILL.
This time away has been incredibly life giving and allowed me to reconnect some pieces of my puzzle that were previous to Motherhood that I didn’t even realize I had neglected…and dearly missed.
And some pieces of the puzzle are gone or will not ever go back the way they were,
and I have made peace with that.
With all of that and zero guilt in admitting that, I am ready to go home and embrace my Husband and babe. Looking forward to coming home and whispering in Forrest’s ear how deeply I love him, inhaling his baby head smell, kissing his chubby cheeks, and squeezing his little thighs as I did when I said goodbye.
Here is to the beauty of transformation and the beauty of change by way of Motherhood.
Photography by Michelle Lyerly – @MichelleLyerly